I don’t know how else to phrase this, the bottom line is that we don’t get it.  We do not understand the idea of voting for a moderate.  The very thought process that gets anyone to the decision that Hillary is a better candidate is mind boggling.  What it comes down to is really some really wishful thinking.  It’s a hope and change 2.0 with nothing to back it up, and no energy.  Beyond that it appears to be hope and dreams in someone who has a long standing history of doing the wrong thing.  We have the opportunity and are at a point in history when we can choose someone who is outside the system.  We can choose someone who is not paid for by the system, not part of the main stream to make real change.  The only argument I can ever see going for Hillary is that she is a woman.  When you break down every other argument falls apart.

Before you run off and just think I am Hillary bashing realize that I know she is a better candidate than a Republican.  I realize that she will do wonderful things for the economy at least for the 1%.  I also understand that she will make subtle changes that might help everyone but might hurt the middle class.  Even though Obama has been a great president and his policies have helped the poor, he has hurt the middle class.  Since Obama took office he passed the ACA, then allowed the Bush tax cuts to expire.  This has done nothing but hurt the middle class at a cost of 5-7k a year if not more.  The very idea of having another moderate, middle of the road Democrat almost scares me more than a Republican.  This I am afraid is the number one reason people switch parties all the time.  The vast majority of people where hurting before Obama, and after all the hope and change we are worse off not better.  Yes we were loosing jobs in America the market was crashed the economy was in the dump.  Obama stabilized the economy, and the 1% once again have flourished.  The bottom line is that the middle class has not had a raise in 20 years.  Beyond that we have only seen wages shrink because the costs of healthcare, education, and taxes have all gone up.  What Hillary will do here is very questionable and here are a few reasons why;

Trade agreements:
Has their ever been a trade agreement Hillary didn’t vote for?  Well maybe the one thing for sure is that she voted for Nafta, Australia, Morocco, Oman, Peru, Korea free-trade and now the new TPP act which will allow Asia free trade.  Nafta alone has been responsible for some 20 million American jobs.  When we talk of blunders this is epic.   She has talked several times on renegotiating Nafta but it has never happened.  On the flip side has their ever been a trade agreement that Bernie has voted for, no.  He has not voted for one.  The source is here for Hillary and voting on trade agreements, http://www.huffingtonpost.com/ian-fletcher/hillary-promised-to-reneg_b_8267424.html

Healthcare:
I am sure we all remember the first round of Hillary fighting for universal healthcare.  What was the outcome of that?  Well she ended up with a plan which ultimately backfired amid the barrage of fire from the pharmaceutical and health insurance industries and considerably diminished her own popularity.  Among that she wound up with a litigation against her and millions in donations from the pharmaceutical and health care industries.  This time however she has decided to double down on ACA.  This is a plan that the Republicans have voted to repeal over 60 times.  I would bet that since the campaign cycle they have voted to repeal it at least 5 times and yet she is going to expand it?  Sorry but the plan is a disaster, its crony capitalism and does nothing for the middle class.  That doesn’t mean the ACA doesn’t have a positive its helped 20 million people.  The problem is its not comprehensive enough, and the thought that you could expand it when not a single Republican has ever voted for it is crazy.

Now your probably thinking how would Bernie do any better.  Well for one he is not expanding ACA.  He is expanding medicare, which already has an infrastructure.  Medicare already has set costs, restrictions, and is a somewhat successful program.  It is the path the single payer and I can let you read why in this 2014 article here: https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/wonk/wp/2014/01/13/what-liberals-get-wrong-about-single-payer/.   The ironic thing is that Bernie has been under fire so much he has released a budget for everything as well.  This shows him creating a revenue of 9 trillion dollars over the next decade.  Where does that revenue come from, well for one he would be cutting out all the adjunct systems that are no longer needed.  Then you have the tax on wall street speculation.  I am sure some will say but the Republicans don’t want a single payer system.  That is where you would be wrong, they want a single payer system, vouchers something.  This was a failure of the ACA that the Republicans where actually fighting for.  Of course all this has to get through Washington, which is my next point.

Working with others:
Quite honestly this is a place where I don’t have a ton information with Hillary.  I can say the entire senate and congress has been a joke.  The polar view from the parties have become a laughing stock to the world.  The shutdowns of government have been a straw man attempt to hijack democracy.  It seems the parties are as split as ever and social media is deviding the parties even more.  So why do I think Bernie would be better here?  Well for one he is not a long time Democrat.  He is actually one of the only senators that was elected as an independent.  He is and will always be sort of the odd man out of the party affiliation because he is not enveloped into the ideals of a party.  The irony here is that he worked with Rand Paul and was the only Democratic vote to audit the fed.  His concern is nor has it ever been about party lines but the American people.  http://observer.com/2016/01/what-bernie-sanders-vote-to-audit-the-fed-says-about-his-devotion-to-bipartisanship/

Drug war:
This is another place that Hillary just has not progressed really at all.  She still believes in the drug war.  This is and has been a failure.  The disparity among black and white people convicted for crimes and the length of the sentence is very disproportionate.  Once someone is in jail and has a criminal record their lives are messed up.  The obvious need here for real reform is huge, and the idea of jailing victims is insanity.  Rats in studies have shown not care about drugs when they have other options.  People using drugs are those that feel the most helpless and are in a state of need.  The other reason for use is around pain management an area that the pharmaceutical industry is very concerned with.  The pharmaceutical industry has large amounts of money going into making sure the drug war remains.  The irony is that clinical drugs cause more deaths around pain management than almost any other industry at a rate of over 2.5 million since 2013.  Actual street drug overdose is at around 50k, and maharajah is at 0.  Where does Bernie stand on this?  He wants to decriminalize lower class drugs and stop the war on drugs.  His position is one of reform the person, not jail them.  His stance is very open and would allow for options like Colorado has to use those taxes for the people.  Again a very positive position which we have heard from libertarians and green party in the past.

Race, GLBT Issues, women’s equality:
I know I lumped these together, but I did for a reason.  These are about equality for all people.  Ironic isn’t it, when you break it down what they are saying is they all want equal treatment.  Where do the candidates sand on that?  Hillary has been well was for marriage between a man and a woman.  It’s all over commercials, everyone knows the reality of that.  She has only recently come around on that and only has a 89% rating from the HRC which ironic enough is now endorsing her.  Where is Bernie?  Well he has a 100% HRC rating.  He has never spoken against glbt issues and their is a meme going around with him marching at a 1972 transgender protest.

Where is Hillary on race?  Well that is not all positive either.  At first she couldn’t even say, “all lives matter,” but it gets worse.  During the 2008 election lots of people had questions about if the Clinton’s where in fact racist.  If you get a change google, “Clinton race baiting.”  You’ll see many examples of them saying things like, “shucks and jives, Obama is lucky to be black or he would be losing,  Obama is an Uncle Tom who was doing drugs when the Clintons were fighting for blacks, The Obama Muslim rumor” it goes on and on.  Of course she talks very positive and was at the 1962 Martin Luther King speech.  She has some positive things in this area, but again she is moderate at best.  I could continue on this path, but her 60% rating on ACLU for voting speaks for itself.  Where is Bernie?  Well he was marching with Martin Luther King.  His rating on ACLU is at 93%.

Then you have women’s equal rights.  Yes they are both pro-choice, both for equal pay, both state things around education.  So it’s cut and dry right?  Well not exactly.  When we break it down Hillary was accused of only paying 72 cents on a dollar for her campaign now.  Of course she later “supplied” totals for everyone which makes things seem more even.  The issue is more or less that she had to supply them and then there is a question of what was changed.  Beyond that she takes donations from countries that have horrid women’s right violations.  Then their is the fact that by pro choice she means rare, safe and legal.  Again not a strong position but one that allows for more room to negotiate defunding of women’s health centers. She is moderate at best in this area where she should be the strongest.  Bernie is unquestionable in this area as well. http://observer.com/2015/11/why-bernie-sanders-cares-more-about-womens-issues-than-hillary-clinton/

You just want free stuff:
Really?  Has the Democratic party sunk so low that it’s now using Republican lines?  I have heard this several times from all areas.  Believe me when I say that a Democrat believes a healthy, educated person will have a more positive impact on society.  An educated and healthy person will be able to get a better paying job, and not have to worry about their health.  The idea that this hurts the economy in any way is a joke.  We are 37th in healthcare and 29th in education.  We are the only major industrialized country in the world without free healthcare.  What makes it worse is the dates in which other countries have started universal healthcare.  Most countries understand that health should not mean bankruptcy.  I don’t even understand the argument when you realize the reality of what is happening in other countries.  We have many examples of working systems we just need to pick one and be done with it. https://www.facebook.com/usauncut/photos/a.190167221017767.44131.186219261412563/1127945390573274/?type=3&theater

Wars:
Again another area I could spend quite a long time showing the difference.  The bottom line is that again Hillary is pro war when you look at the alternative.  She seems to have around a 85% vote for war.  Bernie on the other hand is probably somewhere around the 40% range.  The bigger issue though is that we have been at war 93% of the time since 1776.  That is a very staggering figure one that makes no sense at all.  I am afraid even Bernie has voted for more war that I would like.  We have to get out of being a police state and this is something even he has stated.

Reforming campaign:
Another area that at best Hillary is a moderate.  She has a long standing history of voting in between.  She has stated that she would look at or consider an amendment against Citizens United.  She has voted for lobbyist gifts to Congress, but she does want to move toward public election financing.  With that stated she doesn’t want to ban lobbyist.  This is a huge area that needs reform.  I don’t really need to get into the why or how Bernie has it covered.  This is an area that is at heart of our democracy along with the rotating positions of regulatory offices and their ex co workers.  A recent debate on this had Bernie at odds with Obama and Bernie was very much in the right position.

Electability:
I would say Hillary like her campaign is moderate at best.  She is not energetic, doesn’t have a large amount of charisma, and doesn’t engage the people enough.  She is a democrat that at best is very moderate and has a huge issue with trustworthiness.  I will not go into this further as it really makes no difference if its all right wing staged.  It doesn’t matter at this point her name is tarnished.  She stated it in the debate that she thinks she is trustworthy, yet I don’t know a single Republican that feels that way.  I know many Democrats feel that maybe there is something their as well.  Which again when we are talking about electability this is a huge negative.  We want someone that will win not someone who is close in margin.  Then there is the scandals which happen over and over with the Clinton’s; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kypl1MYuKDY&feature=youtu.be

Bernie the socialist…  If that is all they can drag up then bring it on!  Bernie was an independent, he has shown he can reach across the line.  He probably has a following that spans from Libertarian, Republican to Democrat.  When we are talking about someone who is electable this is what you want.  Someone who has shown they can work across the lines.  Right now America is ripe for someone who is outside the lines.  This is the reason I feel Trump was so popular.  Trump was the 1% but was doing things with his own money and put his name out their as outside the system.  If those people really look at Bernie they would realize he is what they are looking for not Trump.  Bernie has come from outside the system, outside the party lines and outside the establishment.  We are ripe for something like this and his convictions resonate with the people.  He has been here since the 70’s and its his time.

So please stop telling me they are close or the same…  I could expand on this list with every single issue out their.  I would love to see a woman president, Hillary just gives me the gag reflex.  Maybe the entire argument for a Hillary supporter is just emotional.  There doesn’t seem to be one logical reason someone would vote for her over Bernie.  I will hope that someone understands now why we don’t want a moderate, so please stop asking.  No I won’t vote for her,  I’d rather vote for someone who has been fighting for the middle class since the 70’s.  Now for an awesome video that shows the Bernie fighting the good fight: https://www.facebook.com/matt.orfalea/videos/572645039039/

 

The entire diet and exercise industry is a joke. We have all bought into the belief that it takes work to be thin. I mean crazy work to lose weight. We tune into programs like, “The Biggest Looser” and watch people lose tons of weight.  Not to fault anyone, this program is my guilty pleasure as well. Programs like this however only ingrain the idea that weight loss only happens with a personal trainer and a dietitian. We look to pills from Dr. Oz as miracle cure to regain control of our bodies. Our bodies that sadly are out of control. We are tired and sluggish so we turn to caffeine products like energy drinks. These drinks which make our bodies toxic so much we never fully feel rested. Then we rely on them to feel awake and alert.  Our bodies that then become so out of control that we end up with high blood pressure so we take medication for that.  Then we have products to make our skin soft and remove the flaws from the surface.  This cycle continues and we never gain control because we are taught something that is off.  We buy fruit drinks instead of pop, drink juices that contain more sugar than any pop.  Maybe switch to diet everything in a desperate attempt to lose the weight.  No one ever states a simple fact.  Weight lose is not about exercise, its not about trying to be good and eat things that are low fat, low sugar, low salt.  Its all a joke, its not reality.

The truth of the matter is so simple that really its ironic more people don’t see it.  We are a society that wants fast answers and quick meals.  The problem is that we have turned to industries that makes billions of dollars.  If we look at the food industry they try to appeal to your desires.  They try to make food more addicting so you will come back for more.  The diet industry which again is all about quick solutions but none of them really work.  They might have something that will help a minute bit that once you stop you gain back more.  The doctors are not going to tell you a solution they don’t have a clue.  They might suggest diet and exercise but don’t have actual suggestions on what to do.  They are merely there to put band aids on the issue.  If you have high blood pressure take a pill, if you have serious conditions maybe a bypass valve, or staple your stomach.  These are all temporary solutions.  The reality is that no one can out exercise what you put into your body.  I know I have done it before and lost 50 lbs in a summer.  It was a ton of work and I felt like I was starving, not to mention all the extra stress on joints.  In the end I gained it all back over the years.  Then tried everything I could think of till recently.  The reality is that loosing weight is simple.  Its so easy I wis10357242_908112012533762_2263795107291374828_nh I had tried it before.  Try eating raw fruits and vegetables.  Replace a few meals with nothing but raw food.  Then you can eat one meal as big as you like.  The amount of spinach, or broccoli you would have to eat to equate any processed food would astound anyone.  Imagine a 2.5 lb bag of spinach is only 260 calories.  Now compare that to 2 ounces of oil which has 240 calories or a 1/2 lb hamburger which has 386 calories or one 24 oz juice which has 360 calories.  Which do you think would be more nutrient dense and better for you?  The ironic thing is that after your skin will be in better condition as well.  You won’t have cravings for sugar, and no need for caffeine.  It might take a few days to get into it but I am hooked now for life.  Raw is the way to regulate your weight.

Need proof, here are others that have done it and while different ways one thing remains they all eat raw:
http://thebananagirl.com/
http://www.whydontyoutrythis.com/2014/01/70-year-old-looks-30-reveals-fountain-of-youth.html
http://www.rebootwithjoe.com/

This next one will give you some facts about eating raw food that should be taken seriously:
http://rawfoodsos.com/

I know its been a while but I have been lost in thought as usual, or time.  Either way I can’t escape the fact that I would like, no love to be in love.  I mean the kind of love that makes you dizzy.  The kind of love that rocks your world makes it upside down crazy.  The kind that makes you drunk in love yet it never comes.  The ironic thing is not that you don’t have the opportunity its that you don’t even take the chance.  There is something more to life that is almost unexplainable.  I mean why wouldn’t one take the chance to be in love?  We see this all the time, one person loves another one yet the other one doesn’t even notice the person.  Its ironic almost odd, I mean look at life its as if it was meant to be with someone to love….  Yet we don’t choose the easy path.  Each one of us choose to be with someone that sometimes doesn’t make the slightest sense, or reason of why.  Yet we love someone that is most what our ideals are around.  These ideals can be so flawed and be so detrimental to our existence yet we don’t choose someone that will really love us.  Either way its a crazy ironic world that sometimes makes me wonder are we really better than a simple pet?  After all a pet loves you no matter what and just thing they didn’t choose you.  Are we really better off than those who a mate was choose for them?  It really makes me wonder sometimes what is love, and what is life?

It is often stated that one should forgive and forget.  I have come  to think of this quite differently.  While I agree we should always forgive individuals I have a different mindset about forgetting.  Maybe that is just life or the hardening of my heart, but I have the thought we should never forget.  People will say they are sorry, people will come up with great reasons for their actions but many of those actions will never change.  Just as people do not change in ways we would wish.  Its naive almost to think about forgiving and forgetting.  Its not smart either and really people should not apologize for behaviors they cannot change.  I once heard a person say that they hated how often someone would say they were sorry.  His statement was why apologize for a nature or action that you’re not going to change.  It’s a pointless gesture in much the same way we ask how someones day is.  We are not really interested in hearing the utmost intimate details of ones life.  It’s just a gesture to say hey I noticed you there and couldn’t think of anything interesting to say, so how ya doing?  At the time I thought the person was rude for saying that they hated hearing sorry so often.  Now I really think they had a point.  So if its nature and the habit is not going to change then why say sorry?  Why not just say this is my nature I could say sorry but I am not going to change.  I know it’s not pc but it would cut out a lot of bs in really knowing who someone is.  There is a lot to life that really if we take a deep look it’s just a cloud of deception to hide the reality.  I almost wish there was no such thing as political correctness no such masks for individuals then we would really know people.  I say almost because there is a nice layer of hope that comes from deception.

Lots of people are people wondering what the hell.  We have not had an update from you in years and you come back with this?  I am done with this blog forever.  Yes, sorry its been way too long.  I really miss writing my feeling out on some wall.  Let me write the back story and maybe you will forgive me, did I mention I was sorry?  Okay the honest truth is that I have been writing in my mind for years.  I have keeping things bottled up for a lifetime.  It all has to come out sometime.  Well here is the back story.  When I last left I didn’t know if I would ever see my parents again.  My ex hated me but talked about maybe coming back at some point and I was here with two kids trying to be a everything to them.  Not much has changed well except I did finally see my parents.  My oldest son finally meet his mom.  Oh and my ex is still talking about someday coming back.  So some progress in my life and more on that back story.

It took my parents five years to come to terms with things a bit.  Still they miss gender and purposefully call me their son all the time.  Its frustrating and yes I have cut conversations short because of that.  Most of the time on the phone the entire conversations are steered well away from my gender and transition.   When that becomes the conversation it was in the past about how I was going to hell.  For parents the fastest way to kill off your transsexual kid would be to tell them they are going to hell.  Trust me most kids will take that very seriously and it’s probably the reason for the suicide rate.  We can apologize, say we are sorry but this is our nature and not going to change.  Trust me on this one if we could change we would.  This is not an easy road and time only makes things more difficult for some things and easier for others.  Either way the only reason my parents finally let me visit was my father’s health.  He is not doing so great.  He had a hip replacement and his body is rejecting it in some ways.  The hip replacement was a while ago but basically it’s slowly poising his body.  We have talked off and on in email and it came down to the reality.  I wanted him to see his grandchildren.  One of which he had never meet and he is 5 this year.  It was very good though to finally see them.  I know things have always been rough between us but that week actually was very good.  I am thankful that things are at the point where I can at least visit them once again.

I was also able to talk with my ex my oldest sons mom.  We had not spoken in seven years.  My other ex was hanging up on her and making things almost impossible for her.  I had lost touch and she had also moved ten times over the last seven years.  The good thing is that I was able to spend a week with her as well.  I found out through her that my mother thinks I look way better now.  How odd to find out information like that through someone you have not spoken too in a long time.  That is my family though, sweep things under the rug and don’t say anything.  True feelings and thoughts can never be spoken of, but I digress from the point.  My ex spending time with her and seeing her made me realize I don’t always pick bad people.  I do however have the worst timing in the world and hid who I was for a very long time.  I still hide much today we all d,o behind our political correctness and our, “how are you’s.”

Its been an interesting month.  A month of tears but not tears of sorrow.  Its been a month of reflection on the past.  This is why I think we should never forget.  Things that are said and done are part of who people are.  Its part of the fabric of life and part of what makes us who we are.  If we forget we are not learning from the past, we are free not to make the same mistakes.  I for one know who I am, and realize who people are that I have had extended time with.  I do not hold grudges with those people but will not allow extended time in my heart for those people.  There is no apologies, no sorry’s that will make up for nature.  I would rather move on for something more whole in my life and looking forward for that.  Maybe now that I have addressed the past its time to move on to the future.

I often enjoy making or trying new things.  Today my co worker had mentioned Indian flat bread.  I had never tried to make this but thought it looked wonderful.  The idea is very simple you take a simple bread like a pizza doe almost.  Then instead of baking it as you usually would you fry it in oil.  Then it bubbles up and cooks into a kind of crispy bread.  Its almost like naan bread but a little different.

I didn’t follow any sort of recipes but probably should have.  It came out wonderful though.  Looking at other recipes it looks like you should use powdered milk.  Here is what I did to make the bread.

2 cups of flour
2/3 cup of water
1 tbls of sugar
1/2 tbls yeast
1 teaspoon baking powder

I did not let the bread rise much at all.  It was only sitting for 30 min.  Then I took the bread and balled it up into golf ball size and flattened down with a roller.

Now to cook the bread.  This was the careful part.  I did it as a deep fat fry kind of thing and it was not easy.  The oil causes it to bubble really quickly and it over cooks quickly.  What you want is a nice golden crispy bread.  So keep the oil cool but not too cold.  Then once it has cooked up eat and enjoy.  I would think a good way to keep the oil from getting it soggy would be to put it into a pan on the oven at a light temperature.

I made mine into a taco, with turkey meat since we still had so much left over from Thanksgiving.  I made the Turkey meat with taco seasoning  cilantro, cinnamon basil, and onion.  Then made a salad with jalapeno, tomato, spinach, lettuce, celery, and topped it off with hot sauce.  Next time I will have to make the flat bread 100% correct and see how much of a difference it will be (link here for recipe).  Here is another picture of the bread and turkey meat.

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