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I am going to apologize up front for those of you that have issues with sex. While this is my personal journey I really don’t want to offend. I know there are those that can’t talk about or are offended by sex but sorry that’s just a part of life. So after the warning on with the blog…
I really have to be honest before starting down the path of transition, I had a libido. It was not just a small issue either. It was a in your face, larger than life, drive you crazy libido. I can honestly say it was too much. Well it was way too much for me anyways. I remember in college running to a GNC and asking do you have something for this. It was too much, and yes I did get laughed out of the store. I could almost admittedly say there is a reason sex is on most male’s minds every 30 seconds. It’s more than on there on their mind they have something that just won’t leave them alone. This protruding issue really does have a mind of its own. It was a relief for me going on hormones and not having this issue right there. It was a very welcome change for me to no longer have something always there present on my mind. I find it’s a great relief to no longer have the physical presence taking over my life.
One thing that I have found though is that the desire is still there. It’s interesting how subtle it is though. There is a whole different range of emotions with it. I am glad for this change and while it happened a long time ago I have found a new enemy. I love chocolate. Yes you heard right, chocolate is a craving as bad as my darn libido was before. I can’t stop I wake up and think a caribou coffee with whipped cream and Carmel would be so great. Darn you hormones. Then I get all lovely after words and just feel so happy. Maybe I like it more than sex, no scratch that I do. So if you see some girl licking away at the whipped cream and Carmel on a coffee you know she is enjoying it. Maybe she is enjoying a coffee cooler a little too much. Now if they could just invent a way to keep that off the waist line, and keep me from being up all night afterwards. Then I would get them every day, but you know I have to learn self-control sometime.
Then again with sex you burn calories… Maybe I came to the wrong conclusion on this one.