I have been in tears for a few days already over the whole thing…  Its hard to express everything I am thinking and its not really that I was a huge fan either.  I started listening to his music again over the past few months.  Its like something was telling me to listen and I started really appreciating him again.  I think during the time when he was so popular I liked a few songs,  but to be honest I think we made fun of him more than listening to him.  It was something where he was so miss understood.  I know my father even commented about how feminine his nose was and I didn’t think anything of it.  I rather liked it.  Its like the world stopped when he came out with some of his songs.  I still remember the first time I heard, “We are the world, Thriller, and Bad.”  Some of my favorite spoofs from Weird Al are his songs and Madonna and yet I love them both.  He was so miss understood though.  His skin color his oddities around covering his children.  The fact that he never really married, and the issues with the way he looks now.  He had some PR issues around some of the things he purchased.  He was taken to court a few times which we all know about and even his sister didn’t stand on his side at first.  He had physical and mental issues that really extend beyond what a normal person has to deal with.

He was abused as a child and instead of screaming out like Atlantis Morissette (who I also love) he came out with songs like, “Man in the Mirror, Heal the World, Black or White, We are the World, Earth Song…”  He donated his time and money to a number of charities a list of some 39 or more.  The list could go on and on yet this is not what the world showed him.  This is the reason I cry about the whole thing.  Its not right how the world acts on whole.  He was dare I say, a Martin Luther King and a King of Pop.  He gave us a new way to dance and gave us beautiful words.  He was and is an icon that will live on.  We just didn’t see it all the time because he was maybe a little too feminine for our taste.  He was a little odd to us because at one time he was black and then white.  He was wrong to us because he was different.  So what happened, he ended up dying alone.  He died in his rented house with his doctor in pain.  I am grateful that he was so big that no one will forget him.  He is getting heard by everywhere now.  I know he had the most record sales of all time before but now… 

Well the world stopped again when you passed on.  We are all listening now and what we see is a thing of beauty.  Your words we could all live by, and now we understand.  I hope everyone takes the time to think and really listen to what you where saying Michael Jackson.  We will not forget you, you are not alone we all love you.