Its been quite a while since I have last given an update. Its not that there has been activity to blog about, its that life has been so full lately. I have not had much time to sit down and write. I had a sister in law visit for around three weeks, blood tests, more trips out than I can even describe, lost a friend and meet some new friends… and thats just the highlights. So I will try not to blog a ton and capture more of the high points.

One of the things thats stood out in my mind is that no one I have talked to on a personal level finds it odd that I am transitioning. I should mention though that the parents really do not agree and do not want to see my transition. Other than that everyone else has been very accepting. My wife’s sister in law came to visit and I was really worried about what she would think. We went to the Mall with one of my friends and she was dressed. I would have loved to go dressed as well, but my wife wanted me to hold off. After going out and being at the Mall we got back and she asked if I dress as well and go out. She said she was interested and already kind of knew. She completely accepted it without me having to say anything or explain. After that I think the wife and I went out at least once if not twice a week with me dressed. I even spent a whole day just shopping and then went out with the extended family. It was a great day and not one bad comment or a look from anyone that they knew. It was one of those days I really enjoyed and wished my voice would have been better. I was able to pick out a very good red dress and wore that later at the club as well. When she left after her three week stay she even gave me a hug which I know is different for a sister in law.

I also had a recent blood test and found out some levels were way off. I was a little scared at first as to why. I have stopped taking anti-androgens which is what is supposed to block Testosterone. I stopped around May 5th and yet my test was not what I expected. They found that my Testosterone level was very low and my Estridol level was through the roof. It was enough of a shock that I am supposed to drop my estrogen intake as well to every 10 days for a shot. I also had to do some other tests to make sure nothing else is wrong. Everything came out fine though and it was a scare for a bit there. What I found was that in some people Propecia is enough of an anti-androgen to create a conversion from Testosterone to Estrogen. So its a good thing after all and not cancer or a messed up thyroid. I am finding that waiting for 10 days though is rather hard. The last time I had to wait I wanted to cry over everything on the last three days before the shot. I hope this is not normal and things kind of level out once I get used to it.

We also had a bar b queue with a lot of people over. Most of them knew I was Transsexual, but have never seen me in anything. This was not the time either to be dressed but it was still a huge bar b queue. We must have had over 20 people running through the house. It was fun though and afterwards some of them stayed very late. The people, really my wifes friends already about me. We were gathered at the dinner table with some of them and it was like question time 101. Of course everyone always has to ask so are you gay? This time it was asked a little different though, one of the asked if I was attracted to males at all. I found the question rather like double edged sword. I wouldn’t be human to respond to that any other way than of course there are males that are very attractive. Does it mean that I would leave my wife for one? Of course not… The other questions were like so how long does it take to transition, will the relationship continue all those sorts of things. Then they also wanted to see what I looked like. So I opened up the computer and showed them. Of course they though I looked good and maybe there was a little shock. All I know is the next day we went to another event at the other ladies house. We were invited in spite of the fact that I was transsexual. Its always good to know that people can be understanding even when someone they know doesn’t fit into there world the way they expected.

I have been very tempted lately to get on here and write little quips.  Maybe a thought for the day since everything else is so strung out into elaborate details.  Its kind of something where there would be less content, but maybe more thought for that one sentence…  I will have to see if I can do that because as I look at this blog its almost a book at this point.  I almost feel bad for anyone trying to endure reading the whole thing at this point.  So maybe short is sweet in the future.

Sandy